Monday, December 31, 2012

Ruin My Life


2012… It had some great moments and memories and it had some very hard times. To write just about the natural disasters that happened locally and nationally would take quite a while. Or to write about the terrible tragedies that took so many lives this year would also take quite a while. I could also write for a very long while on God’s faithfulness, provision, protection, healing, and so many more things in this past year. Everyone has had different moments of greatness and sorrow in 2012, but those times are in the past and are only memories now.  Tuesday begins a new year, a new blank slate to be filled with the twists and turns of life. If I had taken a guess at what my life would look like right now at the beginning of last year it would have been very far off, but then again I think every year is like that.  We can try to take an educated guess on the future based on our work situation, friendships, where we want to be, etc. but there are so many factors we can never account for.  God is faithfully in control of our lives and brings different events into our lives to mold and shape us. Many times the events that happen in life leave us with no human explanation to why it happened, but we can take comfort in knowing that we serve a God who is sovereign over all things.

I  have the privilege of helping lead worship at my church on New Year’s Eve this year.  During practice this week we decided to do a song that I hadn’t heard for a long time, but ever since we practiced it I can’t stop thinking about it. The song is Ruin Me and the verse and chorus are:

Woe to me I am unclean
A sinner found in Your presence
I see you seated on Your throne
Exalted, Your Glory surrounds You

Now the plans that I have made
Fail to compare when I see your glory

Ruin my life the plans I have made
Ruin desires for my own selfish gain
Destroy the idols that have taken Your place
'Till its You alone I live for,
You alone I live for

The verse is taken out of Isaiah 6 where Isaiah sees the Lord seated on the throne. When Isaiah catches a glimpse into the full glory of the Lord he fully realizes how sinful and unrighteous he truly is.  He realizes that his life is meaningless unless it is spent bringing glory to God. Towards the end of the passage Isaiah says, “Here am I, Send me!” In other words it is a total surrender of the plans he had made for his life that were selfish gain.
If only we fully grasped God’s holiness and righteousness compared to our inadequacy we would have the same reaction Isaiah had when he saw the Lord, “Woe to me, for I am ruined!” All of our selfish ways and plans would be brought to light and we would see how dishonoring they are.

The chorus of the song is prayer that all the things in our lives that our not pleasing in God’s sight would be removed. That the way we plan our days, weeks, and years would no longer be focused on achieving our own gains, but first and foremost about knowing God more and making Him known. My prayer is that 2013 would be a year marked by us throwing off the things that so easily entangle us and running the race set before us fixing our eyes on Jesus. (Hebrews 12:1-3)


4 comments:

  1. Thank you for posting this. It is very encouraging to me. This year has been rough to say the least.

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  2. I find it interesting of the complexities of that passage, and that song. Thanks to Ellerslie, when Isaiah says, "Here am I, send me." I always think of Isaiah 59. The whole chapter is good, but the end is what astonishes me, and due to reading 'All of Grace' by Spurgeon, has had much weight added to it recently.

    Before verse 11, it talks about the how It's not that God cannot hear or save them, but it is their pitiful, sinful state that has caused Him to hide his face from them. He lists multiple transgressions before coming to verse 11 and 12, stating they cannot find salvation and their sins testify to our guilt. It the story of humanity.

    11 We roar all like bears, and mourn sore like doves: we look for judgment, but there is none; for salvation, but it is far off from us.
    12 For our transgressions are multiplied before thee, and our sins testify against us: for our transgressions are with us; and as for our iniquities, we know them;
    13 In transgressing and lying against the LORD, and departing away from our God, speaking oppression and revolt, conceiving and uttering from the heart words of falsehood.
    14 And judgment is turned away backward, and justice standeth afar off: for truth is fallen in the street, and equity cannot enter.
    15 Yea, truth faileth; and he that departeth from evil maketh himself a prey: and the LORD saw it, and it displeased him that there was no judgment.
    16 And he saw that there was no man, and wondered that there was no intercessor: therefore his arm brought salvation unto him; and his righteousness, it sustained him.

    It is during this that it is stated, "And he saw that there was no man, and wondered that there was no intercessor" and it reminds me of how humanity, void of all good, completely lost in their sins, and with no hope of salvation that it is Christ who says, "Here am I, send me." And he claims the weight of the sins of all humanity and becomes their intercessor. He took our place and bridged the gap between us and the Father. Where he one hid His face from us due to our transgressions, he now embraces us as His children. And it's not because of anything we have, or could have done. It's pure grace that we don't deserve.

    When faced with this, we should respond as Isaiah did, "Woe is me, for I am undone." and be faced with the reality that we are only given meaning by His grace, and have no other response than to cast all aside and step up as Isaiah and Christ did to say, "Here am I, send me." in an act of total surrender.

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    1. Great thoughts Andy. I love the parallel between Isaiah saying, "Here am I, send me" and him going to the lost people of Israel to Christ being the willing sacrifice and coming to all who are lost. Your last paragraph was right on.

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  3. So you do update your blog

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