Ruin My Life

2012… It had some great moments and memories and it had some very hard times. To write just about the natural disasters that happened locally and nationally would take quite a while. Or to write about the terrible tragedies that took so many lives this year would also take quite a while. I could also write for a very long while on God’s faithfulness, provision, protection, healing, and so many more things in this past year. Everyone has had different moments of greatness and sorrow in 2012, but those times are in the past and are only memories now.  Tuesday begins a new year, a new blank slate to be filled with the twists and turns of life. If I had taken a guess at what my life would look like right now at the beginning of last year it would have been very far off, but then again I think every year is like that.  We can try to take an educated guess on the future based on our work situation, friendships, where we want to be, etc. but there are so many factors we can never account for.  God is faithfully in control of our lives and brings different events into our lives to mold and shape us. Many times the events that happen in life leave us with no human explanation to why it happened, but we can take comfort in knowing that we serve a God who is sovereign over all things.

I  have the privilege of helping lead worship at my church on New Year’s Eve this year.  During practice this week we decided to do a song that I hadn’t heard for a long time, but ever since we practiced it I can’t stop thinking about it. The song is Ruin Me and the verse and chorus are:

Woe to me I am unclean

A sinner found in Your presence

I see you seated on Your throne

Exalted, Your Glory surrounds You

Now the plans that I have made

Fail to compare when I see your glory

Ruin my life the plans I have made

Ruin desires for my own selfish gain

Destroy the idols that have taken Your place

'Till its You alone I live for,

You alone I live for

The verse is taken out of Isaiah 6 where Isaiah sees the Lord seated on the throne. When Isaiah catches a glimpse into the full glory of the Lord he fully realizes how sinful and unrighteous he truly is.  He realizes that his life is meaningless unless it is spent bringing glory to God. Towards the end of the passage Isaiah says, “Here am I, Send me!” In other words it is a total surrender of the plans he had made for his life that were selfish gain.

If only we fully grasped God’s holiness and righteousness compared to our inadequacy we would have the same reaction Isaiah had when he saw the Lord, “Woe to me, for I am ruined!” All of our selfish ways and plans would be brought to light and we would see how dishonoring they are.

The chorus of the song is prayer that all the things in our lives that our not pleasing in God’s sight would be removed. That the way we plan our days, weeks, and years would no longer be focused on achieving our own gains, but first and foremost about knowing God more and making Him known. My prayer is that 2013 would be a year marked by us throwing off the things that so easily entangle us and running the race set before us fixing our eyes on Jesus. (Hebrews 12:1-3)

Be Still

Be still… What a concept in today’s environment of information attacking us all the time. Even while I write this my phone keeps going off, I have emails coming in and people around me that want to talk. We are surrounded by distractions almost every moment of every day. It is hard to carry on a conversation with somebody without one of you being distracted by something. With everything today coming in short bits of information we are loosing the ability to sit and focus on something in depth. Also with the high speed in which we can access information we are losing the ability to wait for anything.  If we want something we can order it, download it, buy it, sync it, or search it, and have it delivered right now and there is no waiting involved. Sure this transition to faster and faster consumer goods and information may make our life easier, but it can have serious consequences when we have that mentality in our Christian walk.  The Christian life is not about instant fixes on areas that we are lacking, but rather a lifetime of consistently seeking after the heart of God and drawing near to Him. Drawing close to God requires more than tweet sized bites of scripture and a quick prayer before we eat. It requires a heart that yearns for Christ.

I believe few have understood what it means to be in constant community with the Father as well as David did.  The psalms are full of his yearning and pleading with God to be his guide and deliverer through life, because He understood with out Him his life is not worth living.  He writes in Psalm 37:7 “Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him.” We are so used to not having to wait on anything that this can almost come across as a strange concept. Moses told the Israelites in Exodus 14:14 “The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” My first instinct in the situation would be to try and do something on my own power. My life is in danger and you are telling me to just wait and be vulnerable to whatever may come? The Egyptians who enslaved them for so many years were chasing after them and the Lord’s command to the Israelites was to be still and watch as He fought for them.

The same God who parted the red sea, who protected Paul from the venomous snake, who delivered David from Saul, who hid Elijah away from the prophets of Baal, this God is the same source of strength and deliverance for us today when we trust in Him. “Be still and know that I am God,” He commands us. Be still and know that He is the heavenly Father who loves to bless His children. Be still and know that His love is relentless and unchanging. Be still and know that He takes our feeble efforts and uses them to advance His kingdom. Be still and know that He heals the broken hearted. Be still and know the He gives strength to the weak and courage to the faint of heart. Be still and know that His grace is enough. Be still because He is worthy to receive honor and glory forever and ever. This is the God that we serve and who desires us trust Him so much that we stop trying to do things in our own power and in our own way and rely on his timing and his perfect plan.

I pray that in our busy lives that are filled with distractions we would come before our Savior and be still because He is worthy.

“Lord, I want to yearn for You

I want to burn with passion

Over You

And only You”

- Shane and Shane

Preach the gospel....and use words

I interact with people all throughout my day. My job requires a lot of customer interaction and I enjoy the opportunity of getting to know the customers more as I talk with them. I also have the opportunity to interact with strangers while standing in the checkout line, sitting at Starbucks, hiking the incline, or numerous other places. All of these interactions with people are a chance for me to share the gospel with them. I must admit that most of the time I can come up with silly excuses why I shouldn’t do it. “They are in a hurry so I shouldn’t bother them, or this isn’t the right time, or I don’t want to be a nuisance, or I don’t have the right words to say.” These are all dumb and petty reasons that I use and let an opportunity to spread the gospel pass. Ultimately though I think it comes down to fear. Fear can build up inside of me and all too often I take the easy way out instead of addressing the fear. I have found much courage and comfort in Paul’s words from 1 Corinthians these last few months. 


Starting in chapter 2 he writes, “When I came to you, brothers, I did not come with eloquence or superior wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about God. For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. I came to you in weakness and fear, and with much trembling. My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit’s power, so that your faith might not rest on men’s wisdom, but on God’s power.” 


 The apostle Paul who was filled with so much passion to proclaim the gospel, but he still felt fear when he did it. This is where I can find the courage to bring it up with strangers because I know that I am experiencing the same type of fear that Paul experienced, and that the same Spirit that gave Paul the words to say will give me the words to say. Paul says himself that he did not have superior wisdom on how to spread the gospel, but he did make it his number one ambition in life to seek Christ. Whatever is in a person’s heart will come out in their speech. If seeking Christ is our number one ambition in life then proclaiming Christ will spill forth from our lips. 


 The tragic events that have happened in Colorado Springs the last few weeks have left many people seeking for hope. We know as Christians that only true hope can be found in Christ. We can place our trust in Him knowing He has everything under His control from the fire that swept down the mountain to the hail that damaged so many houses and cars. God has blessed us with a wide open door to preach the gospel to others. I pray that we would all be ready and eager to proclaim Christ in the conversations we have in the weeks ahead.


 Philippians 3:10-11 “I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead.”

It all points to Jesus

I have read the Bible more than any other book and there is still so much of it I don't understand. Some passages I read over and over again and I am still confused on what it means. I find Revelation and many of the prophetic books to be beyond my understanding. Even if I can't understand all of the passages in these books I do know that they are all pointing to Jesus. I read passages like Isaiah 53 which I think is one of the most beautiful pictures of what Christ did on the cross. Or I read passages like Revelation 21 about the second coming of Christ which makes me excited every time I read it. In Luke 24:27 it says, "And beginning with Moses and all the Prophets, he explained to them what was said in all the Scriptures concerning himself." One day I believe Christ will explain to us what was said in all the scriptures concerning himself. Every part we don't understand, every part we disagree on, every part that we think we understand and He will show how it is all about Him. Until that day we hold firmly to the gospel and ask God as we read the word to open our eyes so we can understand. 

A Link That Can't Be Broken

Tebowmania and Linsanity are two phrases that have become ever popular over the past year. What is it about the two athletes that has captivated the news and fans all over the country? Is it there playing ability? Their faith? Or the combination of them both? There are many other Christian athletes in every sport who play very well, but they aren’t making the news like Tim Tebow and Jeremy Lin. I believe it comes down to how both of these guys are living their lives when they are not playing. It is how they are treating others and spending their money. Their Christian faith is not just a title they carry around, but it is actually impacting their lives. The media hasn’t seen something like this in the world of sports in a number of years and it is fascinating them. The gospel is advancing in way that it hasn’t before. Ross Douthat wrote a very good article and I have included part of it below. 

Why is Tim Tebow such a fascinating and polarizing figure? Not just because he claims to be religious; that claim is commonplace among football stars and ordinary Americans alike. Rather, it’s because his conduct — kind, charitable, chaste, guileless — seems to actually vindicate his claim to be in possession of a life-altering truth.

Nothing discredits religion quite like the gap that often yawns between what believers profess and how they live. With Tebow, that gap seems so narrow as to be invisible. (“There’s not an ounce of artifice or phoniness or Hollywood in this kid Tebow,” ESPN’s Rick Reilly wrote last year of the quarterback’s charitable works, “and I’ve looked everywhere for it.”) He fascinates, in part, because he behaves — at least in public, and at least for now — the way one would expect more Christians to behave if their faith were really true.

But the fascination doesn’t end there. Tebow’s religion doesn’t just promise a path to personal transformation. It claims that every human life is actually a story with an Author, and that a genuinely Christian life should make that divine Authorship manifest.

So in Tebow’s case, the link between faith and football can’t actually be broken. The more that his professional career seems like, well, a storybook — with exciting up and downs, new opportunities and unexpected twists — the more credible his faith in providence becomes.

Just as Tebow’s link between football and faith can’t be broken the links in our lives should not be broken. The link between school and our faith, the link between work and faith, the link between friends and faith, or the link between our free time and our faith should always be evident and never broken. The gospel affects every area of our lives so why do we so many times live as if it only affects us on Sunday mornings? Matthew 5:16, “In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.” and 1 Peter 2:12, “Live such good lives among the pagans that, though they accuse you of doing wrong, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day he visits us.” The outpouring of preaching the gospel to ourselves daily is a life that is glorifying to God both inside and out. May we be people who live such good lives among the pagans that God would be glorified in whatever stage he has given us whether it be in front of thousands of people or in front of our neighbor next door. 

God, have mercy on me, a sinner

“Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. The Pharisee stood up and prayed about himself: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other men—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.’

    “But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner.’”

This is the parable that Jesus tells his disciples in Luke 18. This is a beautiful picture of God’s unfailing grace. To begin off, the Pharisees were know as the rule keepers. They kept the mosaic law as perfectly as any human could. We can see just how much pride they took in this in the latter part of the Pharisee’s prayer. Because of this they viewed themselves holier than those around them. The tax collectors on the other hand were the worst of the worst. There are several times in scripture where Jesus would go and eat with the “tax collectors and sinners.” They were hated by most and considered as bad as adulterers and prostitutes. The parable begins with them both going to the temple to pray. 

Many books have been written on the subject of prayer and how to pray better. I have even written several posts about prayer Here, Here, and Here. The disciples asked Jesus to teach them how to pray. In all of the searching on how to have a prayer life that is glorifying to God we must start with the attitude of our hearts. The pharisee’s heart attitude was, “God, look at me and all that I do for you. You should love me.” The tax collector’s heart attitude was, “God, you are holy and I am a guilty sinner. I am undeserving of Your love.” The passage says that the tax collector didn’t even look up to heaven. He was so aware of how unworthy he was in the sight of God. 

We live in a time where we hear how much God loves us left and right. We sing songs like “How He loves” and “Your love never fails.” Don’t get me wrong it is important to be reminded of the unfailing love of Christ, but we run into problems when we put God’s love above His holiness and justness. When this happens we are left with the question, “How can a loving God send people to Hell?” Rob Bell tried answering that question in “Love Wins” and even brought into question the very existence of hell itself. God is a loving God, but He is also a Just and Holy God. This brings us back to the prayer of the tax collector, “God, have mercy on me, a sinner.” Jesus concludes the parable by telling His disciples that this man left that day justified before God. Because of Christ’s finished work on the cross we can look up to heaven knowing we are now holy in His sight. When we preach the gospel to ourselves we realize that we are sinners in need of mercy from a holy God. We also know that our best human efforts, tithing, fasting, going to church, etc. can not justify us. Paul writes in 1 Timothy 1:13-16 “Even though I was once a blasphemer and a persecutor and a violent man, I was shown mercy because I acted in ignorance and unbelief. The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus. Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on him and receive eternal life.”

In order to fully grasp how wonderful the gospel is we must fully grasp how real our sin is. I pray that each day you are living in light of the gospel and it’s life changing message. When we come before God let it not be with an attitude of “Here is what I have done” but rather “Here is what You have done.” I read a great article earlier this week about reminding ourselves of the gospel on a regular basis. I have included it below, and I hope you are encouraged as I was. Have a wonderful, gospel-filled week.

         Several years ago I worked at an investment broker dealer. It was at the tail end of the market’s ‘good days’ and during the subsequent ‘bad days’ that followed September 11th. As you might imagine there was a lot of chatter about the dissipation of folks’ investments. I remember over hearing the customer service reps repeatedly trying to calm people down. One particular strategy they employed was to tell the anxious callers to look at their investment summaries about as often as they look at their wedding pictures. In other words, don’t get too worked up day to day.

This worked because most people don’t look at their wedding pictures every year, let alone every month or every day.

I remember wondering, “What would happen if people did look at their wedding pictures every month?” Most certainly couples would be reminded of their love for one another, the beauty of their spouse, the changes over the years, and the love that they still have. It could be helpful. It could prevent ‘issues’.

DUST OFF THE GOSPEL SNAPSHOTS
Similarly, what would happen if the Christian looked at the snapshots of the gospel more regularly?

Too often we function like comfortable married couples that have been together for decades. Older ‘mature’ couples get comfortable. They are not as immature and ‘green’ as those young couples that are smiling at one another, thinking about one another, and bragging about one another.

May God forbid that we get over the gospel! If maturity means indifference and distant then give me another word!

Dust off those gospel snapshots and see the Savior, your Savior! Look at him bear up under the Law and fulfill it perfectly for you (John 4.34). Marvel at his resolve to go to the cross where he will pay your eternal sin debt (Matt. 16.21). Let your heart throb contemplating the truth of sovereign grace in electing, predestining, calling, adopting and regenerating you (Eph. 1.4-5, 2.4-9). Force yourself to wrestle with the simultaneously humiliating and joy producing reality of the cross; we killed Christ but God was pleased to crush him for us! (Is. 53.10) Let the personal love of Christ flood your minds and hearts as you consider him praying for you, and the joy and unity of all his followers (John 17.13, 20-21). Reassure yourself of his faithfulness to you as always lives to make intercession for you as the great High Priest (Heb. 7.25-27). Remind yourself that he is most certainly coming again, to return for you. In fact, he is standing right at the door, ready to kick it in and come back (James 5.9). As you look again at the gospel snapshots, observe that his righteousness is an everlasting righteousness, and as true as he is the Son of God his righteousness is forever the basis of God’s pleasure with you. God will never be more happy with you than he is in Jesus.

This is a glorious album to explore.

If we are (and we are) forgetful, lethargic, unthankful, unmoved, unamazed Christians, then, by all means, pull out the gospel snapshots and sit and stare at the narrative. See the completed work of God in Christ for you. And, just like a good bride, don’t stop staring at the pictures until your heart is moved and you find yourself in love and happy in this marriage.

-Erik Raymond

You can find his blog at www.ordinarypastor.com